Dreaming About A Round Table And The Thing With My Ears

03 12 2013

Ever since I re-pinned this picture on Pinterest I can't get it out of my head.

First i didn't even know why, besides that it just looks beautiful all over with the Eames chairs and the large light.

But then it became clear to me: It's because of the round table.

round table

I envision communication must be so nice sitting at a round table, right?

You can see everybody much better compare to a square table and in my dream I can also hear everybody much better.

I am severely hearing impaired. 

I lost my right hearing a few years ago and "gained" a constant tinnitus.

Ever since, communication - especially with more the one person at a time - is challenging for me.

Partys and concerts are difficult. Because of the all over sound I can't hear the person directly talking to me. Same with larger dinner settings at home or at friends.

I did try different hearing aids but the sound was always quite artificial and the wearing cumbersom.

I probably need to invest more time and energy finding the right device but since I am o.k. during the day with my family, I haven't done it yet.

I also needed quite some time/years to finally accept, that my hearing is really gone.

The lost happened overnight. I woke up in the middle of the night with pain in my right ear, took a painkiller and went back to sleep.

When I woke up in the morning, the world was spinning and my hearing was gone, a constant tinnitus was hammering in my head. It was absolutely horrible.

I did go to see doctors but I didn't go immediately to the hospital for sudden hearing loss which was probably a big mistake. Even though I have been later told that there wouldn't had been help or a cure anyway. It was very surprising to learn, that - compare to other body parts - very little is known and possible about the ears medicinal. And it makes sense, because you just can't open it up and take a look what's wrong. Even scans have limitations.

I think I just couldn't believe and grasp, that something so major and which such consequences would happen to me. And that it would last. Forever.

Because I have always been - and actually still are - a big believer in the self-healing capacities of the body. 

Well - back to the round table! 

Maybe it's an illusion that I'm able to hear better in a round setting but I would love to have a large round dinner table for the new apartment.

We currently have a long, quite narrow square one which sits 8 to 10 people. I could use that one as my new desk/work table...and then...

I already talked to a wood person because it's rare to find a larger round table ready made. 

I will let you know, what happens...

If you have experiences with a larger, round table PLEASE let me know, because there is barely any information out there.


Happy Day,